Forgive Me (Annie X Male! Reader)

No one blamed me.. but I wish they did.
No one criticized me.. but I wish they had.

They all comforted me when I was down.. I really didn't want that.
They could see my heart was broken.. but they didn't take notice that I was dead inside.  

Light fluffy specks flutter down from the ornate sky. Gray soft like pillows of air and water overflow the unobstructed gaps left in the unoccupied areas. Slowly but surly, these specks will plummet, if not accompanied by a fellow speck, and eventually disperse and wash away with the auxiliary of abandoned specks.
                                             
The pain in my heart is unbearable. Why string me along like a puppet? Was I really nothing to you? Throughout the years, your icy glare against the world Hovered at me. Your burning stare of hatred directed at me. What have I done? I know I'm a man and we do stupid things without knowing but still.. why wouldn't you tell me what was wrong?

Before, you were gentle, kind, quiet and reserved. Yet you demolished your shell little by little once we became an item. You opened up to me, told me your dreams and fears but.. was any of that ever true?

You went to the Military Police, I stayed with the rest and joined the Scouts, yet, our love still shined bright. Letters and visits, late nights and early mornings, you never once regretted what we've done in the past.

But why keep this from me?
Why did I have to learn about you.. The real you like this? Armin, Eren, Mikasa.. they all knew.. but not one told me. They were afraid of being wrong and losing my trust.

Now look at me, tears sliding down my face, remembering that dreadful day.
Of course I wouldn't believe them, I always put you before anyone my love. And yet, I did have a ping in my chest that they were right. *chuckles* What kind of boyfriend am I right?

I still remember your sweet laugh.. The tint of pink on your cheeks and your elegant smile.. oh God how much I miss it. Remember, when I used to tell you jokes? They were horrible I admit but... The ones you did enjoy you'd laugh just like that faithful day. I can still remember what you said to me before... before... it... happened. Remember you said '_____, forgive me. I've wronged you but.. I still love you no matter what, please.. wait for me.'

Now here I am Annie... waiting for you. I love you Annie, I do... but, you have put humanity in grave danger. You and your friends. I will put a stop to them if it's the last thing I do.

I looked up for the first time that day at your figure, encased in a beautiful crystal that only fits someone as beautiful as you Annie.  Looking up at your peaceful state, I placed my hand on the crystal and stroked it softly, remembering how delicate your cheeks were. I placed a small kiss upon the crystal where your lips would be, pulling back almost immediately then looked at her never moving figure.

"Ne, Annie... Forgive me. I will always love you baby but... I can no longer wait for you. I will stop them, your titan friends and put an end to the suffering you later caused. Mankind will be salvaged. This I swear. So wait for me, when the Time is right. You'll pay for the crimes you committed, the lives you stole. And I'll be waiting for you..."

I sighed gently, removing my hand from the crystal, turning away from her walking out of the room.

"So don't cry, where you're going, you won't be lonely like the way you left me."